Sculpting in Time

我也想要

苦中一点甜=)

很想知道 那样的感觉 是该开心 还是酸涩呢

 

读书依然很辛苦 忙到完全忽略了身边的朋友

只有等考完再聚吧 庆幸的是她们未曾介意

曾经很天真地 用自己的方式 去维持和看重每一段友情

可是很多时候 时间和空间的距离 让我即使再用力地去抓 也抓不紧那些擦肩而过的记忆

仿佛越来越懂得什么是随缘 毕竟凡事聚散终有时 最难能可贵 便是君子之交淡如水

又或许 对于现阶段忙得快要发疯的我来说 也只有用这样的话来安慰自己吧

 

还是有很多很多的期待和梦想 让我有想要奔跑的冲动

大概自己内心潜在的双子特质 越被压抑就越要蠢蠢欲动哈

节日又要来了 终于可以过一个白色的圣诞和一个暖洋洋的春节了

一年来一直在逃避的过去 也要勇敢地去面对

 

突然间 有种回到过去的感觉 仿佛自己还是那个刚刚升入初中的小女孩

会把自己内心最敏感的那些情绪 虔诚地记录在本子里 然后悄悄合起来 换一夜甜美的梦

正所谓 人生若只如初见 何事秋风悲画扇

For attractive lips, speak words of kindness.
For lovely eyes, seek out the good in people.
For a slim figure, share your food with the hungry.
For beautiful hair, let a child run his or her fingers through it once a day.
For poise, walk with the knowledge that you never walk alone.

 

People, even more than things, have to be restored, revived, reclaimed and redeemed; 

never throw out anyone.

Remember, if you ever need a helping hand, you'll find them at the end of each of your arms. 

As you grow older, you will discover that you have two hands, 

one for helping yourself, the other for helping others.

订了快一个月的书 今天才拿到手

难得的一个下午 不用做功课不用出门不用做饭不用叠被子

于是让自己静下来 翻阅一下亲切的中文文字 (faint...真的是 很久 没有看过中文书了)

还没有看完 但却记住了里面这段话

 

 

这些日子 因为姥爷和奶奶的相继离开

一向无所畏惧的我 突然感到了深深的恐惧和无奈

生活就是这样出其不意 像一场戏 却没有落幕时那般轻松和畅快

我开始觉得无力 不知道前方的路 是不是会到达我一路所坚持的 最初的梦想

我有些怀疑 自己是不是真的有能力 能让我爱的人 幸福

 

以前难过的时候 会没出息地跑到朋友面前大哭

朋友和家人的爱就是我的整个世界

而现在 我宁愿一个人静静地坐着 不去想不去想不去想了

然后站起来 拍拍屁股 一切照旧

我依然爱着家人和朋友 只是不能再依赖

 

因为谁 也不会是谁永远的主角 就算再寂寞 我也要笑出来

Farewell, grandpa.

 

I wish I could see you one more time, how I wanna feel you and talk to you again.

I wish I could fix the weakened heart that broke you down, you have saved so many lives but only this time, it was you.

I wish I could be strong as you were; I wanna be someone who fears no more as you do.

 

You left on a rainly day, how I hate the bloody wet weather.

I cried and cried but you were gone, so fast like it never happened.

I dreamt about you all the time, your palms were still warm and your face's glowing.

I prayed for you when I thought of you. May you rest in peace and happiness forever.

 

No more worries and no more sorrows, my dearest grandpa.

I promise that I shall never ever turn you down. I want you to be proud of me.

 

Goodbye, grandpa. 

I love you, grandpa.

I know you are there. You will always be in my heart.

我一个人的自娱自乐

你不会懂

我那揉乱了隐隐作痛的神经

你也不会懂

我的喃喃自语和胡思乱想

你更不会懂

 

可是 我还是这样地想念你 我的北京

可是 我该拿什么奉献给你 我的北京

今天又约自己看了场电影 =)

本以为是typical Hollywood comedy 没想到却让我这电影小铁人几次三番地落泪了

电影里面有两句话 让我印象很深

 

其一关于爱的能力:

"Someone once told me that the power in all relationships lies with whoever cares less, and he was right. But power isn't happiness, and I think that maybe happiness comes from caring more about people rather than less."

其实很多事情 很多时候 纠结的根源不是因为爱的太多 而是因为爱得太过自私

不幸福的感觉 来源于斤斤计较和患得患失 想要掌控爱情的大局 却不小心错失了感情中最珍贵的地方

有些人尝过痛苦的滋味 就想要保护自己永远不再受伤 甚至不惜做出伤害他人的事 结果咧 聪明人反被聪明误...

 

其二关于爱的勇气:

"You've got to risk love. It doesn't mean that you're never going to get hurt but the pain you feel will never compare to the regret that comes from walking away from love."

这句话的意思和一句歌词异曲同工: 不管怎样 怎样都会受伤 伤了又怎样 至少我很坚强我很坦荡

我欣赏的人 是愿意付出而不求回报的人 是明知会受伤也勇往直前的人 是风雨过后还能一笑泯恩仇的人

我欣赏的人 充满了力量 充满了快乐 像太阳一样灿烂 和他们在一起 会觉得温暖

 

我希望有一天 我可以成为这样的人 =)

"I would love to sit down with all the people who are doing wrong in the world and go: Hey, what's up with you? What is your fucked up problem? Go smell the roses for crying out loud."

 

"At the end of the day when you go up to the big guy, he ain't gonna care if you were famous loaded, any of that. So it comes down to love. Have you loved? Have you loved and received love?"

 

"I always say don't make plans, make options."

"If you never take a risk, you actually risk loosing out in every department of life."
"It's impossible to satisfy everyone, so I suggest we all stop trying."

 

 

"The greater your capacity to love, the greater your capacity to feel the pain."

"Life's tough, get a helmet."

"The best smell in the world is that man that you love."

 

"It's like the ebb and flow of every relationship. It's hard; it gets easy; it gets fun again. What's hard to sustain is some ideal that it's perfect. That's ridiculous. What's fantastic about marriage is getting through those ebbs and flows with the same person, and looking across the room and saying, 'I'm still here. And I still love you.' You re-meet, reconnect. You have marriages within marriages within marriages. That's what I love about marriage. That's what I want in marriage. It's unfortunate, but we live in a very disposable society. Those moments where it looks like 'Uh-oh, this isn't working!'—those are the most important, transformative moments. Most couples draw up divorce papers when they're missing out on an amazing moment of deepening and enlightenment and connection."